[venus rising] matchbook romance

Friday, April 08, 2005

My cousin’s wedding will be official in less than 24 hours. More of that later.

Strange how scrutinizing I can get when it involves the lives of others whom-I-barely-knew. They are the whom-I-barely-knews, but at the same time they are swift enough to scrutinize me at chances they hit upon. The level of hypocrisy sickens me sometimes.

Particularly at relationships, - My relationship to be precise. So, whom-I-barely-knew just loves to nose around his/her nose into my relationship, and enjoys dropping smart remarks about me, about my boyfriend. To me, and to my boyfriend.

See, this is the way I would look at it (I’m not budging ). Whom-I-barely-knew, by rumors, is someone who refuses to be defeated, even when proven wrong. That, for one, is a great flaw in growth when that someone preaches too much about idealism and what else that he/she wishes to contradict themselves on. In fact, Whom-I-barely-knew is in a relationship him/herself, and not an almost perfect one either. Well, at least not almost perfect enough to point out others’ relationships, in this case, -mine.

So what really astound me is how whom-I-barely-knew can so carelessly comment and observe my relationship (and being wrong about it), and preaches about righteousness, virtue and what nots, when so much has to be done in whom-I-barely-knew’s own relationship and self? It really is not good enough just making yourself look right, but what counts is making yourself right. And that takes more than just words, dude.

So, screw you. You are just a whom-I-barely-knew to begin with. And you will stop at just that. For me, and for my boyfriend.

I have spent years with my love one, and what we have goes beyond lust, beyond kisses and hugs, beyond silly affections. And yes, definitely way beyond worthless counting of days and months.

Well, at least I can brag that so far there is no need for re-assurances in my relationship. There’s no need for me or my love one to wonder...

“Why do you find it so hard to believe that you’re loved?”Tony Parsons, (Man and Wife)